Why? Why? Why?

Why do things always turn out the way you don't want them to?
Sometimes I think work is a curse!

I feel lost in my new space. I feel all energy drained away. I feel betrayed, yet hiding in a small corner doing what they call 'work'.

ARGH! Why can't things be easier? simpler? if not, happier?

I can't sleep. I am waiting to be reprimanded. Waiting for all the daggers and knives and stones to be thrown at my direction. Waiting for my head to be chopped from the chopping board. I made a stupid mistake. But alas! I know whatever reason I gave would only be an EXCUSE to them. What am I to do? Just keep quiet and get the scolding? Or tell them what happened which they will think its an EXCUSE and not a reason? SIanzzzzz.....

Life is suddenly very gloomy for me. REally down in my luck man! Make mistakes at work. Good friend going away (on a mission that seems dangerous to me), MD leaving to be outstationed... AIYOH!!

This is HORRIBLE!