Why? Why? Why?

Why do things always turn out the way you don't want them to?
Sometimes I think work is a curse!

I feel lost in my new space. I feel all energy drained away. I feel betrayed, yet hiding in a small corner doing what they call 'work'.

ARGH! Why can't things be easier? simpler? if not, happier?

I can't sleep. I am waiting to be reprimanded. Waiting for all the daggers and knives and stones to be thrown at my direction. Waiting for my head to be chopped from the chopping board. I made a stupid mistake. But alas! I know whatever reason I gave would only be an EXCUSE to them. What am I to do? Just keep quiet and get the scolding? Or tell them what happened which they will think its an EXCUSE and not a reason? SIanzzzzz.....

Life is suddenly very gloomy for me. REally down in my luck man! Make mistakes at work. Good friend going away (on a mission that seems dangerous to me), MD leaving to be outstationed... AIYOH!!

This is HORRIBLE!

Sad News

Yanshan finally announced the important news she wants to break today afternoon during lunch at Secret Recipe. She's going to be outstationed to somewhere in the Middle East for 1-2 years!!!

No wonder she brought along a BIG plastic bag with christmas presents today. She can't celebrate x'mas with us this year as she's flying off Next Sat!!! Sob sob... SO SOON???!???!!

We're booking her on Thursday to celebrate 'x-mas and farewell' for her. Must get her the christmas present ASAP man!!! Dunno wat to buy her, maybe get her a mayday CD ??

She gave me a Winnie the Pooh mug and a reversible door hanger! The door hanger is quite cute! haha

We are going to refer to her x'mas list for 2003 and try to pick out something there that we can get her this Thursday! It's such a rush man!!! ARGH!!!

Really gonna miss her.... There used to be 4 of us, happily celebrating x'mas, birthdays, and any other occasions..... and the recent Bali trip! Now there's only 3... Sianzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz